f*cking emo

To you who broke my heart:
you challenged me to become the person I wanted to be....
I am stronger because of the trials you put me through...
and no matter what you have done to me,
you have unknowingly done so much more for me...

I know no one is perfect & of course I used to hurt people as well...
but I think I'm just better than some people at realizing
when I've been a prick & I will apologize right away without hesitation...
unless I did it on purpose,but in which case I'll tell them so..
&&&&&I won't blame my wrongs on others...


p/s:I think u should evaluate yourself & learn to take responsibility for your actions and not blame them on others. And, before you take actions, think about how those actions might affect others. thx...

And what I've learned today is 'how well u treat your friends,they might not appreciate it...and they wont treat back the exactly way u treat them........'that's a truth.......

disappointed

sleepless
eat less
drink less
think less
talk less
sms less
keep doing my assignments!!

headache

my life

我的生活超越了平凡..
每一天都要过着提心吊胆的生活
今天的事解决了,
心里却还是会害怕那可怕的明天会到来..
在我的眼前..
我所看到的都是那种种可怕的阻碍..
 或许是我不够坚强..
没有办法一个人来面对这一切..
我累了
我真的累了.................
为什么你们总是那么不公平！
我帮你是理所当然。。
我需要你们帮助时却对我大呼小叫..
我在你们眼中算什么..
我的一切都被你们掌握在手中
我做什么都是错的..
读书为了我的未来我也是错的......
你们说我没有用..
是不是有一天我离开了..
你们才知道我的重要
是不是一天我离开了..
你们才会明白我的痛........


p/s:我是不是不应该再为你们流泪？你们都这样对我了..为什么我还在这里浪费我的眼泪.....我的眼前是一片灰暗...是你们给我的T.T

friend

A friend is someone with whom you can really be yourself.
One who appreciates the good in you,
overlooks the bad in you,
and brings out the best in you.
With a friend, you can share a laugh, a secret, a viewpoint,
a success or disappointment,
and a complete assortment of problems large and small.
A friend is someone who understands silences as well as words,
one who lifts you up and never lets you down,
who makes you feel it's a pretty nice old world after all.
A friend is one who knows all about you and loves you just the same...

I wonder that where is my FRIEND   gone?

I'm not even going to get mad anymore. I'm just going to learn to expect the lowest out of the people I thought the highest of.

Things are getting to me.
Just how people are.
How they always expect you to be a certain way.*sigh

一个孩子需要的是什么

刚才上nuffnang的看看哪位游览过我的部落格,
每当我看到不熟悉的游览者的Referrer来拜访，
我都会去回访看看的...
今天我发现了我曾经在部落格说起她的拜访者...

是什么原因让你误会了我恨你的小孩？

对，说到这一点我想起我也曾经在部落格写过一篇‘我讨厌小孩’的文章..
这并不代表我恨我可爱的侄女，
她的顽皮
当然我们做长辈的当然都不喜欢小孩子的坏蛋...
我没有生过孩子都明白这一点
我不明白,你为什么不懂.

另一点,我看到你谢谢我，你感激我了..甚至和我道歉..
我都接受..
可是我还是无法接受..你们给我的辛苦...
很多事情不是一句对不起都可以换来没关系..
看到现在其实你也蛮幸福
替你感到开心,
可是我觉得你要孩子把你当成你死了,
你会不会有点过份？
说不来看她就不来了..
她是你怀胎10个月生下来的惊喜..
并不是你和前男友的礼物,
可以说不要就不要，
丢就丢..
你不心疼孩子吗？
‘没妈的孩子像根草’
你狠心吗？

　对，哥哥是说过不允许你来看...
可是我和家人都明白，
 你是她妈，我们拆不散你们的..
我们更会瞒着哥哥让你和她就聚在一起或许是那短短的几个小时！！
更明白一个小孩需要的是母爱..

我恨也恨过了
但我都接受你们阻碍我的一切
事情发生也过了一段日子..
你和哥哥的事也到了一段落..

可是你..
孩子怎样都是你自己的好吗？
别那么狠心对待...

我相信宝宝长大后会明白爸爸妈妈离开的原因..
同时接受这一切，
可是如果你要孩子把你当死的..
事实上你却是活得幸福快乐,
有自己的快乐 家庭，
她长大后知道了..
会不会更加恨你呢...





哎...

反感了，累了．．

你让我对你很反感
你做父母的怎么替自己的孩子想！
有没有男朋友有关系吗？
我才１９岁而已
不要说事业未成
我的学业都还没有完成
你整天只会讲那些话来气我
朋友都有伴我不一定要有！
小过我２岁的妹妹有男朋友我也不一定要有！
你不觉得你思想太老套吗？
就算不结婚对现代女性来说也正常
她们也不会不快乐．．
她们可能有你预想不到的自由
而且．．．你也很应该明白现代男生的‘样’
你自己也体会过这些经历过！
为什么还要把我推向危险地带！
你从来没有发现你让我很压力
出一个门每一次都会收到你的‘追命连环ｃａｌｌ＇！！！！
我今天不是去玩的，我去和同学做ａｓｓｉｇｎｍｅｎｔ而已！
我不是没有告诉你的！
我还给你肯定的时间我会到家！
你还是一直打来！
你烦不烦！！
假设如果我有男朋友， 出去约会肯定少不了你的‘追命连环ｃａｌｌ＇
男生不会跑？？
哥哥的小孩你把她好像当成是我的！
我不是‘应该’要帮你们顾的！！



你只会说读书不好，反对我这个那个，这边那边．．
你却不懂你逼得我很紧．．
我没有出声不是因为我愿意听从你．．．是我真的累了．．
你几时才要把我放开？

可以不要那么针对我吗？

我累了．．

埋怨

脾气是我最大的致命伤...
做事冲动也没有经过大脑...
同时没有耐心
同样的没有信心
除了爱玩还是爱玩..
常提醒自己要改要改！

我还是站在原点徘徊

没有突破...

没有上进心！

真没用！

Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

I'm not saying I have nothing.
I'm not saying I'm gone completely.
It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle.
Sometimes I feel like it's too much.
I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right?
Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage... years.
But for now,
just for now,
it hurts.

HuNcH

my hunch tells me that that person is you...........


If someone have a hunch about something,
 you are sure that it is correct or true,
 even though you do not have any proof...


right?........

Whatever. everybody has problems, now get your ass out of bed and get to work.

Things happen,
you know? Things happen,
and you can't make them un-happen.
you don't get do-overs,
 you can't roll back the clock,
 and the only thing you can change,
and the only thing it does any good to worry about,
 is how you let them affect you.

start to breathe and fake a smile,
it's all the same after a while.
I know that you are tired,
carrying the ones you lost,
a picture frame with all the thoughts I know you hold inside.
hope that you can find your way back to the place where you belong.


p/s:have a SMILE right now ..It's easier than explaining why you're sad...

I will be fine. I'm always fine. This is my perfect little life. I smile. I laugh. Nothing ever goes wrong. Nothing..

I've been broken before.

And I know what it feels like to see something funny and not be able to laugh
You know?
when I say I'm okay.
My mouth moves and joyful little meaningless words fall from it.
Everything's okay.
But inside I'm screaming out for help.
Screaming for someone to save me.
My shouts are deafening, yet, no one seems to hear them~~
It seems no matter where I go..
or who I'm with,
the pain follows me everywhere...

well...I don't think anybody knows me now..

hahahaaaaaa

沉默是金

有时候，
你被人误解，
你不想争辩，
所以选择沈默。
本来就不是所有的人都得了解你，
因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。
却也有时候，
你被最爱的人误解，
你难过到不想争辩，
也只有选择沈默。
全世界都可以不懂你，
但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，
还有什么话可说?
生命中往往有连舒伯特都无言以对的时刻，
毕竟不是所有的是非都能条列清楚，
甚至可能根本没有真正的是与非。
那么，不想说话，
就不说吧，
在多说无益的时候，
也许沈默就是最好的解释

 

.........

走对路的原因只有一种，而走错路的原因确有很多种.......

无论黑夜多么深沉，光明也是迟早要到来的......

无论睡梦多么甜蜜，还是会有醒来的一天..

世界上有很多神秘的事...总有一个人可以解释..只是大家都不知道这个人是谁？

一个人的习惯往往别人都知道..而自己却是唯一不知道的人...

越有趣的事情越不能做得太多，否则就会变得很无趣了.......