depressed

It's like one minute I'm fine,
and the next minute something happens that makes me totally empty
the only thoughts that in my head is negative and it makes me feel totally alone,
like I don't mean anything to anyone.

all I want to do is tell someone how I feel,
but I don't want their pity,
even if I could tell someone,
nothing would come out right.

I don't want to laugh or smile, or whine, or argue
I just want to go to bed and cry and hope this feeling passes

i'm fucking tired of pretending everything is okay,
my tears are starting to show and my smile is fading away!!!