my heart is filled so full of doubt

just've been thinking about my life lately.........

everything feels pretty planned out.........

It's like I know everything that's gonna happen........

there are no more surprises.............

I'm fUCKING tired of feeling bad.........

I'd rather feel nothing............

It's better, it's easier................

aaaaarrrghhh!!!

I don't wanna be empty inside anymore!!!

I want to give up!!!

I want to walk away!!!!

I want to forget everything I've ever known!!!

and start a new life!!!!

I want a life that's worth living...........

maybe I'm crazy~~~~~~~~~

but laughing out loud makes the pain pass by 0.1%...:(