Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.

I'm not saying I have nothing.
I'm not saying I'm gone completely.
It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle.
Sometimes I feel like it's too much.
I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right?
Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage... years.
But for now,
just for now,
it hurts.