mayz's 1st day

OMG!
The first day of the exam is really killing me.
As soon as the ELE.english papers were answered,
I realized that I did a lot of mistakes
but just hopping that my grades will be much better than what I expect to...
one paper is gone...
and 4 more papers have to challenge to...
god bless me....
hurray~~~

my heart is filled so full of doubt

just've been thinking about my life lately.........

everything feels pretty planned out.........

It's like I know everything that's gonna happen........

there are no more surprises.............

I'm fUCKING tired of feeling bad.........

I'd rather feel nothing............

It's better, it's easier................

aaaaarrrghhh!!!

I don't wanna be empty inside anymore!!!

I want to give up!!!

I want to walk away!!!!

I want to forget everything I've ever known!!!

and start a new life!!!!

I want a life that's worth living...........

maybe I'm crazy~~~~~~~~~

but laughing out loud makes the pain pass by 0.1%...:(

Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light

I'm slow to listen to criminations among my friendzzz.....
and never espouse their quarrels on either side..
my sincere wish is...
that both sides will allow bygones to be bygones,
and look to the present and future only...

sometimes somethings just let it go....
and just try to keep one eye closed...
tht's a way we can survive to...:)

friendship forever

daddy...happy father's day

daddy,你还记得你收过我们的第一份父亲节礼物是什么时候吗？
是去年的今天...
一串水晶珠链...
当时的你已经病得下不了床...
小姑说当你收到我们的礼物时,
非常的开心，
还跟别人炫耀说是你2个女儿送你的礼物..

遗憾的今年..
你收不到我们第2份礼物了..
你过得好不好？

我已经没有像以前那么固执放弃学业了..
我继续我的学业，
即使家里环境是多么的糟糕..
我知道这是你希望的...

还记得我跟你说过我要读business study
以后帮你管你的公司，
帮你减轻负担吗？
虽然现在已没有可能帮到你..
不过我会努力！
我会让家人好过一点...

一眨眼,你离开我们也快要一年了..
家里发生的事好多.....好多.....
也很有可能你对年的时候我们没有办法下去探望你...
环境真的很糟..
你回来家找我们好吗？
妈妈一定准备美味的食物迎接你..
你喜欢的char koay tiow , lok bak , curry me....
我们等你哦！

父亲节快乐,
我们爱你！

I am an Idiot

I do, but I don't.
I want to, but I won't.
I am but I ain't.
I could but I just can't.
It feels right but it's wrong, 
So when you ask me if I know what I want …
I do but I don't
i go to school, but i never learn what i want to know XP

I'm an emotional girl

I'm an emotional girl

I can't help myself

Sometimes I laugh

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I do both and I don't know whyXP haha....

yes!Im...
warning!!Im an emotional girl!!

college life

                          jaacye,minie and me~~~~I like to kacao...haha

                            pretty ooi bebe
                            and   me                                     

                        me n pity minie.....
                     p/s:I dint force u ya..dont do ur pity face la >.<

                              cute cute jaacye and me^.^

                           lovely couple...
                         

                         my eyes.........-.-

                      yeah.......friendship forever ya^^

                    人家说读书时期是最最最enjoy的时候，
                     我们要珍惜哦！
                                               
               

Im ROCKY

IM ROCKY!!
ROCKY就是弱鸡~~
haha..
身形看起来不弱
身体内却弱到~~~~~~~
今天1234567。。。。。。。。。。个先生小姐问我。。。
‘什么？你又生病？那个。。你上几个星期不是才生病？你做么一直生病？’
+.+
有那么夸张吗？
可能最近123456。。个小时都在吹冷气..
怕冷。。真的很怕
 

哇！beh tahan....

beh tahan for wat???
累啊.....
midterm break过后..
每个subject的lecturer都给assignment.....
差不多都要在这几天里面完成..
拜托，在考试的......
stressssssssssssss ....

course fee不是说好final之前交吗？
突然要我们在这个星期里面settle..
wat to do?
no idea!!
跟家人借?不可能..环境已经够糟了..
靠自己，靠自己
望着天希望有钱掉下来>.<

在这几天所发生的事情..
让我领悟到
不要太多相信人
对！是人都不要相信！
做什么事情靠着自己的感觉走就好..
　不要依赖别人！
失望..算了吧
没关系，
过去了...
我不会恨伤害过我的人...
要怪就怪自己太笨！



p/s:做任何事情，要对得起自己，对得起天地良心..

重新来过

我把部落格其中的105篇文章给删了...
这些文章大多是描述我去年的状况...
事到如今，
我发现我的生活有小小方面的进步/改善了（自己认同的）

1）在各方面，我坚强了 ，也接受了这一切，我可以一个人去面对种种困难
真的是~不经一事 不长一智哦~~>.<虽然有时候我还是会在我部落格埋怨天地~~
哈哈，那都中比以前来得好了吧，说真的我会删的原因也是觉得自己以前有多糟糕，作者不烦，读者看了都反胃..看回去觉得真的是很见不得人啊~~~~~

2）看回去我的文章......OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!我的文笔@.@尤其是英文，我是怎么了...乱写一番！！可是在这一年里我有用心去学啦，朋友有说我真的进步了很多，哈哈，有小小的开心..
如果还让它继续下去。。会不会让大家认为这是一个‘疯人部落格’勒？快把它删了，不要在这里丢人现眼..................

让你们认识全新的我。。^^

my dreams

I don't want to give up my dreams but I am so very discouraged!
I was non-stop chasing my dreams
but now...
perhaps is the time to me coming back the reality life...
I should accept the truth..
but it doesn’t mean I giving up my dreams...
Perhaps, it may just be delayed to achieve..

I believe in‘When God Closes a Door, Somewhere He Opens a Window’

and what should we do?

just be patience and try to discover the existence of the window.

claps for me~~~~~~~come on!!XP

someone knocking on my door

What would you do if you hear someone knocking at your door and you are just the only one stay inside house??
 scream like bitch?
 get a knife and prepare yourself for whatever comes next?
 answer the door and ask what he may need?
faint??
 wakakaka...
Im damn scare about it...
 I ill quickly hide in my blanket!!!!!!
keep silent, and close my eyes up...........

arrrghhh..

I can't imagine if one day....
someone looks like  him there knocking on my door!!!

warrrghhhh!!!
faint

KaMbAtEh

现在的我
觉得生活好忙碌
上课回到家后，
天已经黑了
也累得~~要命！
 倒在床不用5分钟直接像条死鱼一样，
动也不动的睡着了
一睁开眼睛就是去上课
好像都没有时间停下脚步休息
怕一旦停下脚步
就追不上其他的人了
因为我知道我并不聪明
更需要比别人来得努力

可是时间真的很不够用勒！！

下个月开始打工。。

生活费那方面现在对我来说10分紧迫。。

希望下个月打工后。

能轻松一些些....

也希望我能同时handle 功课 与 工作

加油~kambateh!!

new schedule hereXP

yea...my new life start from April...

show u all my schedule ...XP

MON TO WED------whole day classes..............

thurs - friday ---------revision n homework day(I think online more than that)XP

and the..........sat n sun day should be my family day...
I will follow my mum n my lovely niece to super market like

GIANT,TESCO,SUNSHINE to have a look......n stroll around..........

...........the .end......

good nightzzzzzzzzzzzzz all..

college life

开学的第三天
问我过得怎么样的话
我什么都不想说
只有一个字能形容。。。
就是。。。。。。。。。。 
累
 课从早上9点到傍晚6点

哇靠。。

都是塞车时间。。。

幸好就只是那星期1到3。。。

不然后果不堪想象~~~~

可能不是你死就是我亡==

hmm..现在要说我的classmate 了

第一天还不是那么熟

但事到如今（3天里面）我们都好像熟到认识几十年似的~~

是个好事啦~~

我发现我的新classmate 都很friendly,遇到问题也会互相帮忙。。

很开心。。

hehe..

luckily .... 没有那些讨人厌的classmate..

不然这2年半都不知道怎么相处。。。。。。。。。

我的班很少人下。。。

好像是13个学生如果没有记错的话 =.=

真的好像tuition center..kakakaakakak

p/s:才开课一个星期我就开始很压力了。。糟糕~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

倒数15天

15天后开学...
希望loan那一方面不会成问题

加油加油！！

不要再抱着爱玩的心态了，拜托...
向未来前进^.^

Enjoy every moment of life

Don't let someone become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life...
Relationships work best when they are balanced. 

Never explain yourself to anyone
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes you won't believe it. 

When you keep saying you are busy, 
then you are never free. 
When you keep saying you have no time, 
then you will never have time. 
When you keep saying that you will do it tomorrow, 
then your tomorrow will never come. 

When you wake up in the morning,
we have two simple choices, 
Go back to sleep and dream, 
or wake up and chase those dreams. Choice is yours....

We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.
This is the truth of life., it's strange but true.
Once you realize this, it's never too late to change. 

Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad,
Don't take decision when youo are angry, 
Think twice., Act wise. 

Time is like a river,
You cannot touch the same water twice,
because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of life.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. 

So love the people who treat you right. 

Forget about the one's who don't. 

Believe everything happens for a reason.

If you get a second chance, 

grab it with both hands. 

If it changes your life, let it. 

Nobody said life would be easy, 

they just promised it would be worth it. 

education fair

今天第一次到eduacation fair参观，
并收集一些升学的资料
well..今天心情不是那么佳

password♥♥♥♥♥

 哇哇。。如果举办在pisa多好。。
谁知举办在traders hotel里。。
有够糟糕的一个parking位都难找 park路边的话。。
回来中抄牌就惨..
在最后，幸好找到一个很糟糕的位子，
开门时把那些可怜的小树压坏了。。yamgong==
这个位值rm3!!! 没办法。。
真的很想去看看这个展览。。
不错多人下的。。
我该选择什么其实还傻傻分不清楚。。
哎~segi? sentral? ................. management ? hospitality ?...
arrrrgghhh好烦！！
谁来帮我做下决定好吗？。。。。

p/s:那个K$$ 的学费 贵到我想杀人。。我这个穷人真的读不起==

深深体会其实爱情魔力很大，它能让一个人彻底改变。。。